4 Years Ago...

September 04, 2017

4 Years Ago...

4️⃣years ago Labor Day weekend, I was advised by my adoption attorney to "think things over"...
I had been struggling with infertility for nearly two years, and met with her just before the long weekend for some information on costs and process of adoption. I actually forgot that this weekend was the anniversary of that decision, until my interview with @vikavickyvictoria from @jckmagazine on my drive up to the #Catskills for the weekend. It still makes me giddy to share my beautiful journey to motherhood. Even more amazing is sharing that after so much pain and sadness, I actually got julia➡️in just 8️⃣ days. 

I know it's nuts, but I received a call on a Monday from a potential birthmother. She and I hit it off, and at the end of the call, she told me, "I have one more thing to tell you". .
I could tell she was nervous and I said, "What? " I added, "I promise I am 💯% there for you". 

"I'm due on Thursday" she replied 🤸🏾‍♂️🤸🏾‍♂️🤸🏾‍♂️ I was thrilled after nearly two years, I was ready to become a mother!! Luckily, she didn't give birth Thursday and I flew out to #Indiana to meet her. We spent a few days together, and the day I was supposed to leave ( I had a return ticket, as advised by my lawyer, because "anything could go wrong"), the very pregnant young woman and I visited a local hospital for a checkup. .
After what seemed hours, and multiples nurses asked questions and hooking her up machines, the doctor came in asked if anyone had EXAMINED her. 👎 Finally he checked her out. "OH THERES THE BABYS HEAD" he exclaimed! "WERE HAVING A BABY!!" 👶👶

Three hours later, I helped deliver Julia, and never made that return flight. .
There are so many milestones to celebrate in motherhood and i think I am adding this weekends anniversary to my journey. Four years ago, I came upstate sad and in a very dark place. The next time I came to my families house, was for thanksgiving WITH JULIA. She was barely two weeks old and not even six pounds. 

To be honest, I don't even remember life before this kid, she fills my life with so much love, and action, haha, that I often wonder, "what the heck did I do with all my free time #motherhood ❤️❤️#adoption